Tag: personal essay

  • Seals, Selkies, and a Sweet Irish Sea

    Seals, Selkies, and a Sweet Irish Sea

    Mist, Myth, and Seals: A Memory from Ireland

    I still remember the first thing that hit me.

    Not the cold Atlantic wind.
    Not the sound of waves crashing against the rocks—though they were there too.

    It was the smell.

    A soft, almost sweet scent of the ocean—salt kissed with something floral, gentle instead of sharp. It wrapped around me like a hug, the kind that lingers long after you pull away.

    And then I saw them.

    Seals on the Edge of the World

    We’d driven along the Irish coast, chasing the kind of wild, rugged beauty I’d always imagined from books and movies. You know the places I mean—the road narrows, the sky opens wide, and you can’t quite tell where the land ends and the sea begins.

    That’s exactly where we ended up.

    The air was cool and damp, the kind that settles into your hair and sweater and softens everything around you. I walked toward the overlook, my shoes crunching on the gravel, feeling the mist brush my cheeks before I even saw the water.

    And then, down below—scattered across the rocks like dark little commas on a page—were the seals.

    They lounged and wriggled, occasionally sliding into the sea with effortless grace, as if gravity had never really applied to them. Some bobbed in the water, just their heads visible, like curious neighbors peeking over a fence.

    I stood there and stared.

    Time did that strange, stretchy thing—it could’ve been two minutes or twenty. I didn’t care. I was rooted to the spot.

    The Sweet Smell of the Sea

    I’ve smelled the ocean before—but this was different.

    Maybe it was the curve of the coastline, or the way the wind carried the scent upward along the cliffs. Instead of sharp or briny, the air was gentle. Alive. It felt like the sea was breathing with me.

    Every inhale carried the faintest taste of salt, settling on my lips. Tiny droplets of mist dotted my skin. I closed my eyes for a moment and let myself be there.

    The distant roar of waves.
    The soft flap of wings overhead.
    The low murmur of nearby voices, hushed as if no one wanted to disturb the magic.

    It was one of those rare moments when everything in my body whispered, Remember this. Don’t rush. Stay.

    And I listened.

    Imagining Selkies

    As I watched the seals glide between rock and water, my mind drifted the way it always does in beautiful places—toward stories.

    In Irish and Scottish folklore, there are selkies: seal folk who can shed their skins and walk on land as humans. Creatures caught between worlds, pulled by the sea and the shore all at once.

    Standing there, it felt almost impossible not to imagine it. These weren’t just animals; they felt like quiet keepers of old stories. I pictured a selkie woman on some hidden beach, her seal skin folded beside her, staring out at the same horizon—wondering which life to choose.

    Maybe that’s what drew me in so completely. The sense that this place was layered with myth and memory. The seals became more than adorable little ocean potatoes (which—to be clear—they absolutely are). They became symbols of that in‑between space we all recognize.

    The part of me firmly rooted in Iowa—cozy, landlocked, surrounded by fields, seasons, and familiar roads.

    And the part of me that longs for the unknown: cliffs and crashing waves, legends whispered through sea mist.

    For a few quiet minutes on that cliff, both parts of me felt like they could exist at the same time.

    A Moment I’ll Always Carry

    There’s a very specific snapshot my brain saved from that day:

    I’m standing at the edge of the overlook.
    My hair damp with mist.
    My hands tucked deep into my coat pockets.
    Seals dot the rocks like a secret only the sea understands.
    The ocean stretches endlessly beneath a soft Irish sky.

    And I’m just…there.

    Breathing. Watching. Existing inside this small pocket of time where nothing matters except the rhythm of the waves and the gentle, curious eyes of a few seals.

    I think that’s why I remember the smell so clearly. It’s like the ocean stamped itself into my senses, just to be sure I wouldn’t forget:

    You were here.
    You felt this.
    It was beautiful.

    From the Sea Back to the Midwest

    Eventually—of course—we left. That’s the thing about travel. No matter how magical a place feels, you always have to fold yourself back into regular life again.

    But sometimes, back in Iowa—unloading groceries, chasing my kiddo through the living room, or walking the dog down a familiar street—I’ll get a sudden flash of that Irish coastline.

    The seals, like punctuation marks at the edge of the world.
    The sweetness of the air.
    The way the sky and sea felt like one wide, breathing thing.

    It’s funny how certain memories burrow in quietly and make themselves at home. That day with the seals wasn’t a big, flashy milestone. Not a wedding or a graduation or anything meant for a scrapbook.

    But it’s one my heart returns to when it needs reminding that the world is still full of wonder.

    Those seals taught me something, in their own quiet way: you don’t have to live by the ocean to carry the sea with you. Sometimes it’s enough to have one perfect, misty, seal-spotted afternoon tucked safely away.

    Why I’ll Never Forget It

    Will I see seals in Ireland again someday? I hope so.

    I hope I get to stand on another wind-whipped cliff, feel the mist freckle my face, breathe in that sweet ocean air, and spot those little heads bobbing in the waves. I hope I get to whisper hello to the selkies in my imagination—and thank them again for their stories.

    But even if I never return to that exact spot, I know this:

    That day is part of my internal landscape now. Just like the streets of my hometown and the rooms of every place I’ve ever lived, that cliff by the sea lives in me. When life feels heavy or loud, I can close my eyes and go back—the seals, the wind, the salt, the myth, the stillness.

    And for a sentimental, easily-overwhelmed human like me, that feels like a gift.

    image of irish coast line and sea

    This is the kind of moment I love sharing here—quiet, meaningful, and a little bit magical. If you’d like more travel memories, reflections, and everyday wonder in your inbox, you can subscribe below.

  • A Teenager, a Rumor, and a Lesson in Compassion

    A Teenager, a Rumor, and a Lesson in Compassion

    Now that I’ve told you about that one high school disaster, I have to tell you about the other one — because of course there’s more than one.Looking back, this embarrassing high school moment was about more than awkwardness — it was my first real lesson in power, trust, and who schools choose to protect.

    I was reminded of this whole saga recently while catching up with one of my closest childhood friends at our annual Christmas meetup. We always slip into reminiscing mode: childhood memories, inside jokes, and yes… the high school stories that make us cringe and laugh at the same time.


    Cheer Tryouts at 6 AM (Because Why Not?)

    Picture 14-year-old me: excited, hopeful, and trying out for cheerleading. The tryouts were held before school at 6 AM. And being 14, I did not think to bring an extra outfit or shower supplies. So I went straight to class feeling… let’s say “less than fresh.”

    Facepalm doesn’t even begin to cover it.

    My first class of the day was jewelry art with a few close friends. I kept joking about how gross I felt and even made a ridiculous comment about rubbing my friend’s Pepsi on me to mask the smell. Why Pepsi? I truly don’t know — but at the time, it felt hilarious in that “we’re young and delirious” high school way.

    My friends reassured me that I didn’t smell, told me everything was fine, and we carried on like normal. At least… I thought we did.


    The Mysterious Escort to the Office

    The day continued until English class. As I approached the door, I saw my teacher standing beside a woman I didn’t recognize — possibly a secretary? Before I could even cross the threshold, the secretary stopped me:

    “You need to come to the office.”

    And me? Being the cheerful, naive little freshman I was, I responded, “Oh! Sure, I can!” with a literal skip in my step. I had absolutely no idea what was about to happen.

    I was seated in a chair outside an office, tucked in a hallway past the lobby. With a few minutes to kill, I pulled out my bronzer compact and touched up my makeup like I was backstage at America’s Next Top Model. Tyra Banks and Snooki would’ve been so proud. Present-day me cringes at the memory!


    The Interrogation Begins

    A blonde woman eventually appeared and led me into an office. I chirped a friendly “Hello!” because… well, I was 14 and friendly.

    She was not.

    “Elizabeth.”
    Cold. Flat. Disapproving.

    Then, after clearing her throat, her voice dropped an octave:
    “Elizabeth, have you been doing something you shouldn’t?”

    I froze. I didn’t know who she was, why I was here, or what on earth she was implying. I stammered, “No… I don’t think so. What do you mean?”

    She stared at me blankly before snapping, “You know what I mean!”

    I felt fear and anger rising in my chest. Tears welled in my eyes — which only made things worse. She mocked me:

    “Oh wow. You’re quite emotional, aren’t you? Why are you so emotional?”

    Her tone, her expression… everything about her said she had already judged me. Already decided who I was. I felt completely trapped.

    She stormed out, demanding to know “what I was even doing out there,” and the secretary casually replied, “She was just sitting out here doing her makeup like it was nothing.”

    My bronzer compact suddenly felt like Exhibit A in a crime I did not commit.

    Panicked, I texted my brother on my little flip phone:
    “They think I’ve been doing something!! What do I do????”
    He, unfortunately, was asleep.


    Enter: The Vice Principal

    The blonde woman returned with the Vice Principal, a man who had already creeped out most of the student body. Rumors had swirled after a shirtless photo of him (tribal tattoo and all) circulated around school, followed by whispers of inappropriate behavior with female students.

    This did not help my anxiety.

    “We’re going to have to breathalyze you,” he said sternly.

    I was literally shaking as I blew into the tube. Of course, it showed I hadn’t been drinking — I was the most straight-laced kid at this time. I didn’t even think drinking was an option for me.

    But the humiliation was already done.

    Next, they dragged me down the hallway to search my locker. If they were looking for lip gloss and Twilight novels, they would have struck gold. But alcohol? Obviously not.

    They found nothing and finally sent me off to class, shaken and humiliated.


    So What Actually Happened?

    The administration didn’t even call my parents. They didn’t try to understand. They didn’t care.

    But they did email the cheerleading coach to report “an incident.”

    It turns out a group of senior girls from my jewelry art class had overheard my silly comments about smelling gross. Instead of minding their own business, they drew a map of the art room, put an X where I sat, and reported — in writing — that I had been drinking.

    I thought their staring earlier was because I actually smelled. But no. They were taking notes like undercover agents in the world’s most pointless sting operation.

    One of those girls is now a police officer, and while I hope she’s grown since high school… I can’t help but worry about discrimination and abuse of power when I remember how casually they lied about me. Even after it was proven false, they kept bragging that they “got me in trouble.” I ran into her years later and asked her about this ordeal and why it happened. She blamed another girl and said it was because she could.


    Why This Matters: A Lesson in Power and Accountability

    There’s one more part of this story that sticks with me — maybe the part that matters most.

    Not long after everything happened, the principal called me into his office. He told me there wouldn’t be any disciplinary action taken against the girls who accused me. Then he asked, gently but pointedly, if that would upset me… if I planned to hold any grudges.

    And I lied.

    I smiled. I said no. I said it was fine.

    But what was really going through my head was something like, Oh. I see what’s happening here.
    I understood, even at fourteen, that the adults in charge were protecting themselves and the system — not me.

    I left that office furious.

    Our school motto was “AMES HI AIMS HIGH.” It was painted everywhere — hallways, assemblies, pep talks. And after this, it felt disgusting to me. Not because aiming high is bad, but because it wasn’t real. It wasn’t for everyone. It was for certain students, certain families, certain narratives they wanted to protect.

    Looking back, I can trace a line from that moment forward. Over the next few years, I was called into that same office again and again for tardiness. I could never seem to be on time. I was truly something back then — scattered, angry, quietly rebellious in ways I didn’t yet have words for.

    If I had to pick a starting point for where that “something” began — the distrust, the edge, the inability to care the way I once did — it was here.

    This wasn’t just about an embarrassing misunderstanding or teenage drama. It was about being falsely accused, humiliated, and then told — politely — to swallow it. To be agreeable. To move on without accountability.

    That’s why this story still lives rent-free in my brain all these years later.

    Because when adults dismiss harm instead of addressing it, kids internalize that lesson. We learn when the truth matters — and when it doesn’t. We learn who is protected and who is expendable. And sometimes, we carry that knowledge with us far longer than anyone expects.


    The Aftermath

    This whole ordeal shattered my trust in my high school’s administration. I was a naive, emotional freshman who made one silly comment about body odor — and suddenly, adults were breathalyzing me, mocking me, and treating me like a drunk idiot.

    I truly hope schools handle situations like this differently today.

    High school feels huge when you’re in it, but in the grand scheme of life, it’s just a small chapter — even if some moments stick with us forever. Some stories fade with time. Others shape who we become — whether anyone ever apologized or not.

    Do you have any stories from high school that still make you cringe, laugh, or both? Share them below — I’d love to hear them.